so google plus is supposed to be
the latest and greatest right? so when I got an invite, I signed up, thinking
oh another fun google thing... whatever. then I noticed there was a link to
picassa web albums. I’d never used them before so when I saw there were a bunch
of albums with all my blog's photos in it I was confused. I thought google+
must have copied all these photos from my google blogger account… I don’t
really want these on my google+ account. so I proceeded to delete all the
unwanted albums.
the secret is...
when you upload an image through
blogger it is hosted in picassa web albums, deleting those albums broke all the
links to every image I had ever posted.
{translation every image I'd ever
posted was now a tiny blue box with a question mark}
painful. so very painful.
I just had to die for a few
minutes for the hours of work I’d put into my blogs. I mean blood.sweat.tears.
it was all gonzo. this teeny tiny
little corner of the giant www is my
place and it means something
to me. something big. even though it means next to nothing to most everyone
else, it was a haven for me. a therapy.
and now it is oh so broken. if i
am really being truthful it is was not a sadness for the loss of my years of
blogging, but a sadness for all the losses I've had these past few months. It
was the last straw.
it was sadness and tiredness. I
felt 100% spent.
and then God stepped in. I could
sense Him touching my life through others.
melissa sent me this post
to read
”Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed
you.
I’ve called your name. You’re
mine. When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you.
When you’re in rough waters, you
will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it
won’t be a dead end—Because I am God, your personal God,
The Holy of Israel, your
Savior. I paid a huge price for you:
(from the sanctified pearl blog)
and very slowly my heart started
beating again.
and I was humbled like I have
never been before.
because I know that he has called my name, that these rough waters will not
bring me down. I am beginning to truly understand the healing power that
can come from simply having gratitude.
so now I am rebuilding day by day…
post by post and I know that I am not alone.
4 comments:
Your blog never ceases to inspire me! For that I am grateful :)
I told my friend about my same blog dilemma and she told me about yours. Oh how I feel your pain. Years of blog pictures gone. I lost all my pics the same way as you. Sending my deepest condolences...as least we know all the memories existed even if the pics aren't there to prove it.
magen: it was a HUGE oversight by google. Im still in shock that it actually happened, but you are so right. no one, not even picassa, can take away the memories. I know it sounds horrible, dreadful right now. I was overwhelmed to but you should think about rebuilding. Take it a day a time a few posts here and there. I've been plugging away at mine and it feels good to be able to do something! You can do it!!!
xxoo
Friend! I am so SO so sorry. Seriously! I can not even imagine. Glad you have found perspective on everything though, and remember what matters most. You are never alone.
Hope you guys are doing great!
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